lucyland

Wow! It has been three years since I wrote on here. And yet, I don't seem too different.

I read about my behaviour at the 2007 College Ball....

Here's my behaviour at the 2010 Soccer Ball:

1 - Drank whiskey from the Men's Soccer Trophy...twice...
2 - First girl on the dance floor, where I quickly proceed to steal Conor Lavery's tie...
3 - Later, after coercing other ladies to join me, I start stripping a rookie from the Men's Soccer team...as in I start pulling his shirt off of him, telling him to stop being shy and he had nothing to hide. Oh and this was said in a "WTF is wrong with you tone", nothing sultry.
4 - After my unsuccessful strippage, I strip a different guy, successfully.
5 - Discover the DJ left the microphone connected to the speakers....and the microphone was with steal-able distance....
6 - And finally, I stole my friend's phone while she was talking to her boyfriend, and ORDERED him to come up and get her.

Well, in hindsight, maybe I have calmed down.... That list wasn't half as funny as my past shenanigans....

But see, here's the thing, it's very hard to make things as funny as before. I don't know enough of the college anymore! Most of my friends have graduated and left. So the people I now terrorize are the few from years below me, but then they are so young that I feel like the older sister/mother. And there's only so much shit to stir when you're the older one. Well, I suppose you could, but it isn't that much fun anymore....unless you live in Gossip Girl.

So I know this seems convoluted but hey, it's my brain right? Wouldn't work otherwise.

I have been going through this latest emotional craze of keeping everyone beyond an arms-distance from me. I feel every time I let them too close, I can't help but be hurt. Less so by people who seem to have extensive knowledge of my weirdness but in general, no one can really help it.
My mind goes crazy on displacement: scapegoating, blaming everything on an issue that is easy to deal with but isn't at all huge. Recently, my hair and some other friend-issues.
Truth is, I've refused to deal with a lot of issues I have with my perception of success. Basically, this summer, I didn't feel like I succeeded with anything, or if I did, it was just barely. This applies universally to every area of my life. Depressing isn't it?
But I've since realised all I can do is get up and try to change it. If I feel shit at one thing, I just have to get up and do it and keep doing it until I improve.
The reason why I'm posting this, is that I figured my latest revelation has to do with all of you, my friends.
I'm sorry.

I've kept up with some of you, others I've been less than available. And most of the time it has been genuine inability to be around, but part of it, which I can't ignore, is me trying to guard from getting too close again. It hurts every time I realise I won't be around in a few months. I always got very home-sick, now it's amplified.
So if I didn't see you, or I did see you and was distant, or wouldn't shut up about Ireland, on some level, I just didn't want to re-connect. Maybe it wouldn't hurt when I left. Maybe I'd even look forward to it.
Don't get me wrong, Ireland is fun and a good laugh, but leaving home for extended periods of time and coming home to see everyone moving on, then having to re-adjust takes a lot out of you.
So, yeah, this is a sad post, but I'm sad. And I figure, the only way I'm going to kick being completely closed off is opening up.
Oh, but PLEASE don't reply to this. This wasn't a plea for pity, it was just...practice. So don't reply!

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They traded Ference and Kobasew. :( I hate them.

So I was going to try saying that exams are not too bad this time, stress is under control.
Yeah, then an eye twitch develops and bursts my bubble of denial. Don't worry, I can feel it but people can't seem to see it. Just hoping it's purely psychological and stress related so that it goes away and I don't need strange treatments, (which include botox).

Wow, Christmas again! Gotta love how it's getting to a point where you actually have to be responsible for all the gifts you get friends and whatnot. My lack of money means although I'm aware of the responsibility, I can't quite afford much more than keeping my family semi-satisfied.
We're off to Invermere until the 28th or 29th, not exactly sure which one. So Merry Christmas everyone and if I don't see you before 2007, have a Happy New Year too!

So co-directing and co-producing plays is a new challenge. Let's begin with casting: how to tell friends they didn't get the parts they were begging for cuz someone else just nailed it. Tell them knowing that the part is going to someone whos dating her ex. Also, you know she wants it so much she keeps phoning you, constantly to rant about how much she wants it.
Yeah, thank God two of us get to tell her and not just one.
But sharing the responsibility is also more high-maintenance. For us, however, sharing is the best option. We just have to maintain a unified approach on the direction we're taking regarding this play.
It hilarious though, the play. Read the adapted version of Moliere's "The Hypochondriac". It's awesome.
What better to perform at a med school than a play that rips the piss out of doctors. Oh I love it!

So I thought

So I thought a possibility existed
To move closer,
Closer to you.

I thought the possibility existed
To let you in more,
To extended these holiday visits,
To be more your mother,
Let you know me.

But today that possibility,
Either flew away,
Or was stomped out
brutally.

Samed diff, no diff.

So I'll leave my love, my hugs, my kisses, my memories,
With God
For you.

Aka. - Criteria for Canadian med schols got high enough that I shouldn't bother trying because it isn't worth the 120-dollar application fee.

Note to self, hot interns/residents in the Foothills hospital are fair game.

seriously, sometimes this place can be heaven for that. And being a single mom is so liberating in that aspect becaus I'm like, "Hey, I'm not looking to get hooked up, plus I'm leaving in two and a half weeks. Obvious? Me? Why the hell not?"
It's so funny though since everyone else is relatively conservative here.
But really, tall, dark, wavy short hair, surgeon, making scrubs look way too good. I'm allowed, so allowed.

Ok, so the boy-crazy side of me is making a come-back, it doesn't mean I'll actually start dating, it just means I'm enjoying scenery.

Of course maybe this episode has to do with wakeboarding. Doing a front flip and landing on your head can't be good.

Mastermind You scored 84% Subtlety, 75% Leadership, and 89% Forethought!

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My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 85% on Subtlety You scored higher than 85% on Leadership You scored higher than 90% on Forethought

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